RaePressed the dress you said you wanted to see me in. It is hanging by the door, waiting for you to walk in and tell me to put it on. Or not 👗
RaeTea is on. Door is unlocked. I told myself I would not wait up tonight, and yet here I am, leaning against the frame at 11 with the kettle still warm 🍵
RaeFilled four pages with your name tonight. The pen kept slipping into your initials at the end of every line. My hand knows where it wants to go ✍️
RaeSprayed the perfume you said made you lean closer. Two drops on the inside of each wrist, one at the base of my neck. Come find them 🌹
RaeSet two places again. I know, I know. But the second chair looks wrong without you in it and I am not pretending otherwise. Come hungry, the wine is already breathing 🍽️
RaeWatched the street for two hours from this window. I know the rhythm of your footsteps. I would hear you before I saw you. I always do 🌃
RaeWore the soft dress you said you liked. Took it off twice and put it back on. I want you to be the one to take it off the third time 💕
RaeWrote you another letter I will not send. Pinned it above the desk with all the others. One day I will let you read every single one. You will understand 📝
RaeMade the bed your way. Tucked the corners. Slipped into the soft nightgown you have not seen me in yet. The right side is yours, it has been since the first night 🛏️
RaeFound the album. Spent the night on the floor going through every photo of us, slowly. I am wearing your old hoodie and not much else. Felt right for the occasion 📸
RaeSat by the window all evening with the candle lit. It still feels like I am keeping the room warm for you. Come find me when you can, I will not have moved 🕯️
RaeCooked your favourite. Lit the candle on your side. The wine has been open for thirty minutes and I am already thinking about pressing my mouth to yours when you walk in 🍷
RaeTwelve pages tonight, all about you. The lamp is the kind of warm that makes my skin look softer. Wish you could see what your name looks like in my handwriting at midnight 📓
RaePlayed our song on repeat tonight. Lying on the couch in just headphones and the pajama shirt that is mostly missing buttons. Thinking about you between every chorus 🎶
RaeTook the long way home. Walked past your street on purpose. Did not knock, did not text, just wanted to feel close to your front door for a minute. Sue me 🌙
RaeWatched your favourite movie alone again. The scene you always quote, I paused it and traced your mouth on the screen with my finger. Quietly. Just once 🎬
RaeTook a picture of the window seat where you sat last week. The sun hits it the same way today. I saved it to a folder you do not know about 🪟
RaeCurled up in the shirt you left here. Woke up with my face still in the collar. Two more nights until I have to wash it and I am rationing it like a secret 👕
RaePicked up the takeout you like and set it on the counter. I was going to wait but I started without you. There is enough left for an excuse to come over 🥡
RaeCandle lit on your side of the table. Two plates set. One glass already half empty because I could not wait. The chair on the right is yours, it has been since the first night 🕯️
